My house

well its been a while.. a couple years... a lot has happened... but my newwest news.

i have a pretty awesome boyfriend... whos nickname is crazy eddie

hahah

i found a house... to buy im sooo excited...

my moms dog had puppies... st bernard puppies

i got a promotion at work

things are just going pretty good

may 12

we found a place... and i put a bid on it... now i just have to tell my grama... which is gonna be way hard cuz he bigbro just passed away.. and she has been gone for almost a week with her family... i hate to leave her... but ill still be in town for help and what not... but we both knew i wouldnt live with her forever... its just a hrd thing to talk about.. i know her feelings are gonna be hurt and i know money is gonna be tight... but itll be tight for both of us... i know it. but its just the fact that its my grama... well wish me luck for the house and for talkin to my grama... im quite excited... but i think eddies even more excited about this place.. once i get pics ill let yall see

may16

ok so they counter offered... which wasnt a big deal... im still getting it... im soooo excited.... now its just paperwork and red tape and its mine.... YAYAY!! i think i have butterflies im sooooo excited... buti think i need to go celebrate.... so ya know where ill be... text me.... call me... whatever...

ya know i just noticed i only right on this thing like once a month if that... lately its been once every two months.... anyways, i think i met someone... hes pretty awesome but a lil odd umm heres his page on my space

http://www/myspace.com/indianajuggalo

we have most of the import things in common.... and hes a blast to hang out with, theres never a dull moment. he just has a different veiw on famil.y which kinda erks me but with my past you'd think i hate family too

ok well i cant stop coughing so i think im gonna go to bed... now that i have a lil more time to get on here once in a while i might write in it a lil more

o ya i have new cell phone now so if you want my number message me back

Well let's see..... my family and I are moving into a bigger house.... and they are going to own it, not rent. This will be a first for my mom and our family. I get to paint my room but there's already wallpaper in there and they want to just want to paint over it. So I think I might just be stuck with the wallpaper thats in there for a while because I dont want it done half-assed.

A friend of mine set me up with a friend of theirs.... cute guy, 28, used to be in love with another girl in our little group of friends. I was told he was married at one time and has two kids maybe one on the way.... but hey.... I'm just meeting the guy right, maybe hang out a couple of times, its not like i have to marry him or whatever......

Well.... we all partied at his house one night, after everybody got tipsy and left I stayed. Nothing great happened..... I remember that much but he did ask me out in the middle of everything... I said yes so he'd quit talking. The next morning when he was in the garage or something I went to the bathroom; I snooped a little while I was in there.... A womans make-up bag, deoderant, ya know woman stuff you dont leave in your "ex-husbands" house. So I finally got up the nerve to ask him and like a dumbass believed his answer.... "Well when we split she just left and didnt take any of her stuff." BULLSHIT HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID!!!!

So during the next week I told him I'd come into town to see him on his lunch break and one day I even took him to work. So thursday I got off work at 4:30 and said I could meet him aftr work since he didnt have work til late that night at the bar. I dont mind helping people out: takin 'em somewhere that was on my way.... takin 'em to pick up their check. BUT  there is a limit.... I was basically his chauffer for the week. I guess I shoulda got the hint when I asked him why he asked me out.... one of his answers was that I have a stable job and a car... DUH RED FLAG!!!!! HELLO WAKE UP!!!!! The blonde that I am let it go and tried to look past it.

Then out of the blue he asked me to go to Merriville to meet his parents and stay in a hotel.... WOAH...... WAY TOO FAST HERE. So instead of givin him a straight up NO I said maybe knowing I wasnt going to go. Then Friday I offered dinner at my house with the family. Meeting my family is not like going out og town to "meet the parents." I got off work at 3 on Friday and I told him we could spend a couple hours at his house til dinner time at my house. So I got off work and called him...... NO ANSWER. So I went out to Krista's and hung out kinda wasting time so he can call because I was not going to go all the way home and then head back to town to pick his ass up just to bring him back to my house just to eat dinner. Sorry bout his luck but it aint my loss. He finally called and said he was horseback riding. WHATEVER I GIVE UP. So I went home and had dinner. That night I ended up chauffering again and finally used the ole "I have work in the morning" excuse.

Saturday he wanted to do sometihng, but no one could get ahold of him all day long. So I went to Bradley Joe's and hung out with him and his mom, then Krista called. She wanted to go get Haps Cherry Cokes. So I told her to meet me in town, and she didnt want to she wanted me to come out there because there were drunks out at some old lady's house and she didnt want to go outside. So we went to Haps and then she got talking to her ex-boyfriend.

ok well I have to go for now and I'll finish this later

So here's the new news. I'm still working at the Credit Union. I decided not to go back to college this year, well it was kinda decided for me because I kinda sorta failed out. I'm still great friends with Bradley Joe.... the "old man." Nothing else too exciting has happened. A few things here and there.

My mom was in Cali for a couple of weeks cuz my Grams was in and out of the hospital and it got serious enough that she had to go out there. We missed my mom horribly. Carl just couldnt do things as good as my mom could and you could tell he knew we all knew it. (I know what I'm saying and if you dont understand it thats your problem )

I put in an application to be a "collector" for a car dealership. It would be a lot of filing and keeping up with loans and stuff like that. The only thing that scares me is that if they havent paid in like 2 or 3 weeks since they got the vehicle I have to actually go to their house and ask for money. And if they dont have the money then I have to have it repoed and all that good shit.

Ok well I am at work, so I prolly should go back to pretending to work.

I'm on MSN messenger at work if ya wanna get at me  shine2286@hotmail.com

California was awesome, I had a blast. But now unfortunately I dont talk to my best friend that I went with. I guess I can tell ya about that some other time. but I've got bigger fish to fry.

I'd love to hear what yall got to say about this one. I'm kinda stumped as to what to do.

I met this guy about a year and a half ago while I was still my fiance so of  course I just innocently flirted with him, well now that I'm single of course I got up the courage to give him a hard time about not asking for my phone number. So I really like him and all. He's not as immature as the usual guy I fall for. He's sweet and nice to his mom. He's never been married and he doesnt have kids.  There's one really really big problem... He's 33 and I'm only 19. Eh 14 years isnt so bad right? well it is when my mom is only 18 years older than me. 4 years difference between my mom and my boyfriend??? What do I do??